Obsession

I’ve already gone into the reasons Coco and Theodore have been on hold and why we took some time to redirect Stephen’s store. I am really happy with his new product lines and I think it will do well for him!

The redirection has been inspiring. This evening we couldn’t sew on the computerized machine (stormy weather) so I was able to dig out my patterns again for my own shop.

As I cut some designs out, I came to the realization that I NEVER EVER stop thinking about Coco and Theodore. Do you know as I am driving around town Door Dashing that I look at empty places for rent and contemplate them, wondering if they would be good for my store or not?

And that I do that EVERY SINGLE DAY. I do…I just realized that I do!

Today I was really intrigued by the town of Grain Valley. It’s a smaller ‘burb’ town, but lately it’s been developing up like crazy. In fact, for my “other job” I have been working on quite a few jobs in Grain Valley. One is one of my largest Cad jobs yet .

I think the girl I delivered to wasn’t impressed with my enthusiasm over a half finished apartment building. It’s an ownership thing. I worked on that and here it is!

Next to the apartments is a really cute strip mall. And of course there was an empty spot available. It would be a great spot for Coco and Theodore. You guys, my obsessing over this is SO BAD that I paused my dash and got out and walked around.

You know what the worst of it is? This isn’t the first time that I’ve done that. There is a building in Blue Springs that I’ve completely designed the layout of my shop in my head. I’d never be able to afford the spot, but I’ve obsessed over it enough I’ve designed my store inside.

I would explain the entire layout to you: but that would give it away and we have to keep it a secret. NO MORE of my ideas will ever get stolen again if I can help it. So, I’ll keep my designed obsession to myself in case the money stork drops a load of cash on my roof. I go over that too. Exactly how much do I need? I figure $400, 000. That’s not too much right?

I break it down this way: $150K or so to buy a house outright. Nothing too big but 3 bedrooms, a basement and a fenced in backyard. Then another $100K to buy the shop outright. Then enough to hire a few employees, including some sewists. And that about does it. $400k. Not hard at all. ( Ok so my obsession might have gone overboard there. )

I know opening a store is WAY down the road for me, if ever. I am, in fact, going to a job interview Monday that could potentially kill the dream for anytime soon. Obsessions aren’t always the smart path, and life’s reality means that you have to do the adult thing and choose the best for you long term.

”No” now is not “No” never. I know that. Just because my sewing time is about to get really cut down even worse than it already is, and just because I have to consider a different path, it doesn’t mean that my brain will turn off my obsession.

I think it is here to stay, no matter what.